Finding me

1 Nephi 1

I've had this longing for a little while. I really and truly want to be connected to Him again. A while ago, just after I had finished my thesis, I was really struggling (sort of like how I feel now) about getting back to the old 'me'.

I used to be so in tune with God and with my life.

When I was going through the graduate program--I realized that it took over my whole life. I became someone completely different, and I've never gone back to that same person. It saddened me. Still does. However, this comment from a friend on my blog post helped me to take heart, and being reminded of it again this morning and inspired to look it up brought comfort to my heart and relates to scriptures that touched me today. She said,

"I spent about a year of my life trying to 'get back to the old me' and then discovered that she wasn't the person I wanted to be either. I really think we evolve and in many ways we can never really go 'back'. We have what we were in the past, what we've learned in the present and the opportunity to live life today a little more in tune with who we really WANT to be in the future".

I still am that person that I used to be.
I'm older.
I'm wiser.
I've had so many more experiences...experiences I can testify have changed me, and I think for the good.

When I read in 1 Nephi that Lehi prayed with all his heart, (1:5) this particular scripture cross reference I read I felt related to me and encourages me to press forward and come to know God, truly know Him through prayer and scripture study...

Jer 29: 13 "And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart ".

I want to find Him.
Just need to sincerely put my heart in it.
And when I find Him, I am sure I will find me.